April 2024, almost a year after our trip to the Table Mountain in May 2023, I made a solo trip to Oroville again. I went out and completed the trail where we did not the year before.
Behind this curved trail, there was our stop in 2023 and eventually we would turn around and leave, without finishing the trail. I recalled, at the most intense moment of stress and sadness, I made you a tiny bouquet of wild flowers.
I went on and completed the entire loop. At one point, I stopped and looked back. I couldn’t help thinking about “this could have been the path we’re on – to a whole new world” – the exact song I picked for our dance on July 2023. I danced away my shattered soul. I laughed away my broken hope.
We went to Hawaii in early March 2023 and Seattle in May 2023. I hoped that you those trips would help wash away the stress you’re feeling. As for me, I was looking for hopes and dreams. asdf
Hawaii ocean, Seattle skyline witnessed us. Looking back, I felt as if they were telling us to “look at me, enjoy this moment and look forward to the future, ignore undesired events”.
This is May 2024 now.
I walked alone along Alviso, Milpitas, aimlessly. Was I looking for something? Lost hope, lost dream? No, perhaps, I was looking for peace and I wish you would be able to find peace too. Peace must come from within.
