It is May 4 2024, exactly 2 months from our last trip to Merida on March 4 2024. It feels as if I’ve traveled a long way and for a long time; whereas, it has only been 8 weeks. Looking back to all the pain, all the disappointment, all of the heartbreaks I have caused, I have paid my due. I have learned a lot of lessons. I have experienced true love and pain. I have seen how beautiful love is. It is transcendental. I have become aware of pain and how deep of a scar it would leave on me.
A year ago, we were at Table Mountain. And, so, this year, I made a trip to Table Mountain again so that I could finish the trail where we couldn’t. I carried you in my memories as I walked through the wild flowers that were blooming. I carried our memories as I drove to Chico and aimlessly walked around Chico downtown. What was I feeling? Pain, nostalgia, empty, incomplete, overwhelmed with emotions?
As time moves on ruthlessly, our memories surely will recess into ether. I, however, will stubbornly cling on to our memories. Why? It is a mixture of love and pain, laugh and tears, angers and disappointment and most of all, as a whole picture, I chose to think of our frame as the most beautiful chapter of my life. This is the chapter of rebirth and rebuild. This is the chapter that I’ve come to know God.
On an early morning of May 2024, I drove to Fort Mason where I proposed to you. Do you remember?
Why there is Cosmic Balance?
